At this point the underlying, or rather overpowering emotions in the air sit on the spectrum of uncertainty, fear, anxiety, frustration, sadness, worry, boredom......and yes also amazement, wonder, gratitude
Likely more, maybe way more, of the difficult emotions than the happier ones.... essentially because so much change in so little time doesn't allow for processing time.
For this post, I'm picking gratitude.
Likely more, maybe way more, of the difficult emotions than the happier ones.... essentially because so much change in so little time doesn't allow for processing time.
For this post, I'm picking gratitude.
I realized this as I lit the lamp this morning, and I was overwhelmed with the feeling.
Diksha testing negative was only the immediate and visible part of why. There's so much more to be in gratitude for...... at the micro level and macro level.
Starting from her even being back with us, for dhruva being here too, for my parents being able to cope, for ravi helping them out as much as he is, for being able to connect with family and friends and know they are safe........
Starting from her even being back with us, for dhruva being here too, for my parents being able to cope, for ravi helping them out as much as he is, for being able to connect with family and friends and know they are safe........
for the government showing the kind of leadership and solidarity, for the essential supplies chain continuing to keep us provided, for the grocer remaining open under the circumstances, for medicines being available, for the garbage guy still coming to collect the garbage.......
and a special call out to my kirana guy who even with his shutters down, was willing to give me 'ensure' from the back door for dad...
and a special call out to my kirana guy who even with his shutters down, was willing to give me 'ensure' from the back door for dad...
for the net and phone that have become our connect with the world outside....
for that experience of more birds...and more stars in the sky
and that list goes on.
for that experience of more birds...and more stars in the sky
and that list goes on.
On the way back from the hospital diksha didn't want to stop anywhere, but I was like "I need match boxes deech". And she's like "ma, how is that an essential item"
I needed it to light the lamp.
I don't have a religious altar at home..... the lamp in my drawing room symbolizes my hotline with the universe. Any conversation happens through it....and today it got named lamp of gratitude :)
Like I heard in a recent talk.....it's about shifting from 'I feel gratitude' to 'I am gratitude'
Can we continue to feel it in 'complete empathy and acceptance' even as we see life unfold in unprecedented and mysterious ways.
Can gratitude and acceptance become core.
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