Friday, October 18, 2019

Day 1 at Auroville

I landed at Pondicherry afternoon of 10th. 

First surprise was even before landing....when I looked up from my book and out the window,  to find our flight over water. I was puzzled.  It's only when I saw ships and boats that I was certain we were indeed flying over the sea.

The runway is such that you come in for landing over the sea. Cute landing, and even cuter airport. 

Most folks don't even know that Pondicherry has an airport. I met many a folk who'd travelled to Chennai and then taken a cab, presuming there's no airport.  And landing there I realized their presumption was pretty valid. Why?

Because chatting with Kalaimani, my cab driver, I figured it's yet a limited kind of airport. It has flights only from Hyderabad and Bangalore, and more surprising is that it has daily flights only from Hyd. (Bangalore has only twice a week). 

Felt uniquely privileged :)

Auroville is about a half hour drive from the airport. You are on this wide pretty road for about 10 kms and then you suddenly come upon this sign to Auroville, that points to a mud road that branches off to the right. It has a little checkpost of it's own, where I was stopped. They needed the guesthouse to confirm to allow me in. 

Seemed like you're allowed into the commune only if you are staying there, and they do not welcome 'just visitors'. Guess that is one core factor to retaining the quiet and calm of the place.

Once I reached the guest house I wasn't sure what to do next. It's like when folks back home asked what I was going to do there, I'd said "there's nothing really to see at Auroville, it's about experiencing their way of life". I was there, and clueless where to start.

I saw no people, heard no noise, just the trees and birds for company. Soon discovered that they had a free shuttle, so used that to go to the visitors center, which is the touristy spot, open to public kinds.  

Spent rest of day at the visitors center, alternating between just getting familiar with anything on offer, chatting up with some folks, and chilling over cold coffee at this cute cafe, aptly called 'dreamers cafe'. Was a few hours of just absorption.

Some pictures from the day:

When I looked out into the sea


Landing over the coast


The airport....that's the whole of it


On the way to Auroville


At the visitors center


The Auroville charter.....the four large tablets are in four different languages.


It reads like this:

  1. Auroville belongs to nobody in particular. Auroville belongs to humanity as a whole. But to live in Auroville, one must be a willing servitor of the Divine Consciousness.
  2. Auroville will be the place of an unending education, of constant progress, and a youth that never ages.
  3. Auroville wants to be the bridge between the past and the future. Taking advantage of all discoveries from without and from within, Auroville will boldly spring towards future realisations.
  4. Auroville will be a site of material and spiritual researches for a living embodiment of an actual human unity.

Explored some more:

Coralie from Belgium.  She along with some friends run this recycling store. She was sweet, and this became my first longish chat with an 'Aurovillian'.


That's Radhika under the hat, another solo traveller friend I made in Auroville


The Dreamer's Cafe, where I chilled over cold coffee and fries


From the cafe where I had lunch, was so quaint to see those women chilling under the tree


Me with my jain sattvic lunch


I had a tough time getting back to the guest house, (the free shuttle is not always available see). It's only after this that I got the brilliant idea of hiring an electric bike for rest of trip........and it was a mini adventure. I initially fumbled and almost fell, as an electric bike is so damn silent that you don't even realize when it's on and when not, and added to the fact, I was riding a two wheeler after twenty plus years. In fact that guy made me do a couple rounds before assuring himself that I could manage :) 

Having that bike just changed everything......it gave me access.

Wednesday, October 16, 2019

The 'Auroville' experience

This was a visit that has been in my mind since I was 25. Yes, that long.

When I'd gone to visit way back then, there was this immediate connect. And to my questions about life there, when the guy at the visitors center had asked "do you have the calling?", I just knew that one day I'd be back. 

This trip was like a recce.

A recce to explore possibilities in Auroville.

As experience I'd say it provoked a lot in terms of 'senses' and 'feelings'......the feelings went from curious, disturbing, isolating, adventurous, scary, intriguing, fascinating and freeing. Each experienced in intensity. Intellectually I'm yet to process and get my mind around what it actually is, as it's something so offbeat and so layered......for now it's just a lot of feelings :)

If one is curious, if one is looking to broaden and deepen life's experiences, or 'has the calling' as that guy said.......it offers it in a microcosm.

First a little about what Auroville itself is.

Starting right from the name right.....when I was on my way to the airport a friend asked "where? where are you going? is this in India or where is it?"

Fair question. Etymologically it's from Aurobindo and The Mother..... Indian and French. 

It's a city, rather town, which is 'of the world' and not of any particular nationality. In that it breaches geographical or rather political boundaries. In it's population of about 5000 it has people from seventy different countries, with the largest community being Italian, then Indian, French, German, Japanese and so on.

They call themselves 'citizens of the world'....a 'laboratory of evolution' I read somewhere.

As you enter the visitors center, their welcome board reads like this:


While I'd been to the visitors center a few times over the last 25 years, this was my first into the township itself. I was piqued and full of curiosity, as I've wondered about it for a long time now.

As you enter, you see only jungle and mud paths. Aligned to nature and environment friendly is an integral part of their charter.

What started in the mid sixties in a completely barren piece of land just outside of Pondicherry, is today a lush jungle with a vibrant eco-system. The residences, and all buildings in fact, are pretty hidden by the foliage. Feels like an urban village of sorts. 

Most roads are like this.


Conceptually it was begun in the 1930's, when Aurobindo, then a revolutionary freedom fighter was put in jail for sedition, went through what's called 'the dilemma' and then started to write about 'human unity' and 'transformation of consciousness'.

Mirra (later called the mother), put into reality his thoughts. This was done with the backing of the Government of India and UNESCO. In 1966, UNESCO passed a unanimous resolution commending it as a project of importance to the future of humanity, giving them full encouragement.

It's been a journey since then, and while it's gone through, and going through, many a hurdle, what amazes me is that it is yet alive........ throbbing, struggling, yet living. Living an ideological and visionary dream, one that focuses on unity, environment, culture, arts, creativity and evolution of consciousness.........all such beautiful and wonderful facets of life.

To start with, a couple of pictures which speak for themselves, both pictures from a book.

When it began:


And now:


At it's center is the Maitri mandir, again an intriguing architectural design, totally 'a'  religious, what's called the soul of auroville........and  this massive banyan tree, which seemed to have a whole different energy of it's own.

I'm going to need a few posts to let the experience flow..... this one's starter :)

Monday, October 7, 2019

'Time' is a function of Mind Space

This was like a nice 'aha moment'

And it came out of this seemingly opposing situation in my own current vantage.

How opposing?

Well, there's me sitting here feeling I have so much free time, and people around me saying "why are you taking on so many things"  "don't stress yourself out with so much" "how busy are you getting" "your plate is so full of so many different things".

I'm hearing so much of it, that it actually made me wonder if I'm missing something. But see, that's just how conditioning works. 

Yesterday I spent almost two hours playing this game on my laptop, and after one particularly difficult level that I won, I found myself literally prancing around....and I'm like "really? am I that busy"

And that's when the 'aha' happened.

When you have your mind sorted.....it's on a high....it's calm and at peace.....it's in good space, and you get to fill your day with a lot of stuff. And when it's stuff that matters to you, things you truly enjoy doing, even if it's work...... stuff which adds to fulfillment, it in turn keeps your mind on a high.......

and then......time seems to just expand 

Friday, October 4, 2019

Synchronicity

It's a wonderful term...a wonderful concept

One that was coined by Carl Jung to express "an acausal connection between two or more psychic and physical phenomena"

Simply put, they are the 'unexplainable yet significant co-incidences'

While coined by him over fifty years ago, it is now being made popular by the likes of Deepak Chopra, Sadguru, Wayne Dyer and..that ends my list.

We have all experienced it at some time or the other, those strange occurrences that happen together, you're thinking of a song and you hear it somewhere, the phone rings and you just know who's calling, you're thinking of an issue and something or someone gives you direction......that list is endless.

We call them coincidences.

Carl Jung said of it as "a meaningful coincidence where something other than the probability of chance is involved"

They are more than chance. They are 'meaningful and purposeful'. A pattern of connection not explained by causality.

While Carl Jung spoke about what it was, how it happened.......and he used the connect between the 'individual consciousness and the collective consciousness' to talk about it in psychology,  Deepak Chopra and Sadguru are taking it to the next level......they talk of how it is not about 'how it happens' or 'when it happens' but how we can 'make it happen'. 

A shift from psychology to spirituality in terms of approach.


It's akin to sharpening your radar, very similar to tuning a radio antennae. The universe is not just alive and intelligent.....it is intelligence itself. 

The more you tune in.....the more your body mind and spirit align.... the more you vibrate at your optimum frequency ......... the more you'll start to see synchronicity manifest in your lives.

"If you gain a little mastery over your mind, body, and life energies, you can become the master of your destiny" - Sadhguru

A quote that came in this morning's inbox...after I'd started writing this post. A full on live instance of synchronicity if you will :)

Another all time favourite quote of mine, from Jung, saying the same thing:

"Until you make the subconscious conscious, it will drive you and you will call it fate" - Carl Jung

Thursday, October 3, 2019

Facing our fears

From Seth


That’s unlikely.

If I’m lucky, I can glance at them.

But just for a second or two.

Our fears burn so bright that if we truly face them, we think we might be blinded.

Of course, we may think we’re looking at our fears, dead on, but it’s more likely we’re just seeing a distraction, a shadow of what’s actually holding us back.

Because once we’re truly clear about the fear, it fades. It might even disappear.

Wednesday, October 2, 2019

On Oct 2nd

This is one of my most favorite b'day gifts I've received


Guess as with most anything, it can mean different things to different people.

Is it about transforming yourself to being exemplary of what you want the world to be? 

Is it about actually being what you think you should be? 

Is it about being who you really are?

Is it about aligning your 'real self' to your 'ideal self'?

Is it about aligning feelings, thoughts and action?

Each to their own I guess......on this day, thought it's good time to draw inspiration from :)

Sunday, September 29, 2019

Cinemadamare - An Interview with Dhruva

'Cinemadamare', by definition, sounds like a dream program. 

A 'travelling movie campus' that brings together about 200 young film makers from across the world, travelling through Italy, over three months, one week in each town, making films and screening them in the town squares. Nothing like this seems to exist anywhere else in the world.

This year was Dhruva's second stint with Cinemadamare. Literally translated it is 'Love of Cinema'..... guess that's exactly what drew him there the second time too.

Once back, as Dhruva was talking of his experiences, everyone in the family was telling him that he should write about it. Yest when Dhruva was telling Praveen about it, he also tried telling him that he ought to journal it, as there's no way he'll remember it all.

When mom told him to write, he said "I know I ought to ammamma, but my form of expression is Cinema, not writing really".

And dad turns to me and says "why don't you write about it".

Guess that got the idea going. I did a formal interview with Dhruva, one that went on over three hours. Between that, and the innumerable other conversations, here's a go at trying to capture some part of his experience.

Me: Dhruva, full formal ok..........let's start with this. The other day you said; "I now feel I have more access to the world", I thought that was a fascinating line, tell me a little about what that means.

Dhruva: Yeah, it's a whole shift in feeling, one that no amount of travelling gives you. You feel that way because you actually spend three full months sharing your life with people from across the world, from so many countries. I now have close friends in so many countries. That's the literal access.

And even otherwise, we have this feeling about 'foreigners', one that creates distance. I feel that kind of drops away.... as you live their way of life .... do so much adapting....get really close.....you grow beyond that, to feeling anywhere is comfortable, anywhere is fine.

Even the Venice Film Festival, right? Earlier Hollywood was this fantasy land, A distant concept, abstract, something you saw only in movies, in the Oscars. Being at the festival, standing by the red carpet, meeting eyes with stars... seeing them all in real time....just brings it all within a reality realm. It's like being 'in' Hollywood, Hollywood doesn't feel impossible anymore.

Me: Wow, that's a lot. So the participants in Cinemadamare....how many countries were they from?

Dhruva: About 50 to 60 countries, and it's not just meeting them, You get to know them personally, intimately. In fact I now have people there I know well enough to  consider family

Me: Who's close enough to be family? (the word caught me see :)

Dhruva: I hung out with people from Belgium, from Brazil...like Raphael....and this time I got really close to Uruguayians. There's Augustina...and Belen and I just love their accent and their style of speaking English. Listen, it's so cute.

And the friends from Uruguay cooked a lot, so I cooked and ate a lot with them.

Me: This time you said acted in two films. One as Jesus (which ammamma didn't find surprising at all) and one in a lead role too. How was the acting experience?

Dhruva: Not two, I was in about five to six films. Two were like lead roles. It was tough. Tough and interesting. It taught me a lot about what an actor goes through.

A director runs on adrenalin....once the shooting starts it's all a blur.... days on end go into a blur. Even the tiredness comes in only after the shoot ends.

But for actors it's different, they feel it even during the process, as they are emotionally there.

It has helped me be more empathetic, helped me bring out their best, and that in turn brings out the best in the film.

I understood how difficult it is for actors to hold the emotions of the character...for example, I now realize why it's important  to bring them onto site only just before the shoot.

It's like an exam, how much ever preparation happens earlier, those last few minutes matter. Often,  they are called in earlier, and that's so distracting for them as those last few minutes matter so much.... we need to give them that.

Me: Tell me about one difficult experience during acting.

Dhruva: This was a film of Viktor's, he's a really good director...... eccentric, abstract vision. I was this character who hated water. This was a scene where I was lying on the ground, with a burning cross behind my back, and people were throwing water at me. No shirt on and it was really cold...... and it was intense emotions.

And acting is tough because sometimes you reach those emotional spaces with so much difficulty that you can't switch back out and in, so you stay in character for the duration of the shoot, and that makes regular life difficult. So yeah.

Me: Woah, that sounds intense. Will we get to see that film?

Dhruva: Yeah, but I think he's still editing it. I'll ask.

Me: Other then acting did you do any other facet of film making?

Dhruva: Did one editing, which was also tough as the Director didn't seem clear on what he wanted and the DoP and I had different opinions.

I also did 'sound' for six to seven films this time.

Me: Nice. How many films did you yourself do, like direct? Tell me a little about them.

Dhruva: I made 4 films.  One is called 'the pyre', it's in Italian. Two of them are like a series, the series was interesting because it gives opportunity to play around with many facets of the film. They are about 'nature' and 'man'. And how nature enters one man to represent itself, and how that conflict plays out in him.

The fourth one was inspired by a town there. The first three I had the concept in mind even before I went, for one I had even written out the screenplay, the script.

Me: Would you say Cinemadamare is what enabled you to shift from animation to live action?

Dhruva: Well, no, not really. Even in my fourth year of college I started getting more interested in 'live action' and guess would have done it anyway....but then, Cinemadamare helped me get there in a comprehensive kind of way.

Me: What would it have taken for you to make these films here? Why did you need to go there for it?

Dhruva: It's not like you can't do it here, but there the entire crew and cast are handed to me on a platter, there's people with expertise in every facet of film making. And everyone's there with the talent, the expertise, the intent...it's to create film and learn, which is a whole different energy.

Plus the nice feeling that soon as it's made, it's going to be screened for the entire town, and they are very enthusiastic about it.

Me: What about language, did you have an issue with that?

Dhruva: We're mostly in small towns, so yeah you need to know some little Italian, especially as director as we need to find a producer who will help put together locales and some basic props and stuff. We also need it in the supermarkets or restaurants as they don't understand english there at all.

Me: So, can you speak a little Italian now?

Dhruva: Well, I can manage a little. I guess I can understand in context. I also need to introduce the movie in Italian, so yeah I do a teeny weeny bit.

Me: Tell me some of the most difficult or challenging facets of the experience.

Dhruva: Privacy. There is no privacy for the entire duration of the three months. None at all. Not to sit, work, stand, talk, no alone time at all ....none, infact not even to shower. Initially the guys showered in one section and the girls in another, but after a while even that disappeared. It's hard to explain how it changes you. Some places even the bathroom doors don't lock.

You just can't be physically conscious about anything. At some level it just makes you so much more comfortable with your own body.

But yeah, a lot of this keeps people on edge. And at times it's difficult to handle it, for some even more than for others.  There was this really sweet guy from Japan, mid thirties, a teacher of Manga (Japanese comics). His Japanese etiquette was really interesting.

Me: What's your biggest challenge as a Director?

Dhruva: Ego gets crushed. You have to put your whole cast and crew together yourself. Ask around, until you find all the sign ups.....then make sure everyone's mood is right, all factors come together, and knowing there's only one week per film. It's tough.

Everyone has their own challenges, it's either mentally, physically or (at times 'and') emotionally exhausting.

Me: Sounds tough. So what draws people to Cinemadamare?

Dhruva: It's the whole concept, it's so beautifully packaged that given the opportunity you just want to experience it. I went back again didn't I? There are people who come on very tight budgets, maybe do it for just a couple weeks, but they'll still come.

Me: Having taken to Directing, how would you say you've grown as a director over these last two years?

Dhruva: I am constantly exposing myself to learning, be it through watching cinema, watching backend interviews, finding the research and break down of the films, watching masterclasses...I'm always at it.

Me: What about in terms of general growth. How does that fit here?

Dhruva: It's tremendous. You become aware of how little you know, especially about other countries and cultures. You come with what you later realize are your own assumptions and expectations....and people can be just so different, and at times so similar......... sometimes even what you think is fact you'll see is different. For instance I learnt that China doesn't think Kashmir is part of India, that's how they teach it in school.

It widens perspective, you just constantly become so much more aware of things.

You also stop caring about judgement, opinion.....you also become less judgmental..... you stop being conscious of so many little things that take away unnecessary energy.

Me: Were there any moments that you got homesick?

Dhruva: No, not really, because you are so involved, and enjoying every minute of it. Material comforts, sometimes yes, but otherwise no.

We're all there for the love of films and to make films, to be part of films...... it's such a creative environment, and at times even competitive ....  overall it is an addictive environment I'd say.

Me: Did you ever get into any risky spots?

Dhruva: There was one shot that I needed to get the town square in the dark, and I got permission to access the street light switchboard. But somehow we missed picking up the key, so i got a ladder and climbed and I did it a couple of times, and I guess I didn't know it was LED and takes time, so something made a weird noise and I thought I had blown it, like ruined the whole switchboard. We all actually ran.

It was damn tense. Until I was back in Rukan's restaurant it felt scary.

Me: Who's Rukan?

Dhruva: This was in a little town called Monzambano, and Rukan is this lady who runs a family restaurant. She became close friend. She's a yoga instructor, and she likes anything India. She infact adopted me for the week.

I go to know her whole family, and one night they even let me stay over in the restaurant, they locked me in as I had to do an all night editing. I walked her dogs for her and all.

Another time was when we were shooting in tall grasses, at night.....and we suddenly saw this largish animal move..... they have a lot of wild boar and bears.

Me: Did you face any kind of racism there?

Dhruva: The most racist country I've seen so far is India, nothing can even come close.

Me: How was your visit to Rome?

Dhruva: Really nice. I did one day of sightseeing with Belan from Uruguay, and another two with Rafeal from Brazil. Rafeal and I watched Angels and Demons before going to the Vatican. The art and sculpture is at a whole different level, imposing, intimidating....so extremely beautiful. I'll show you that through some pictures, though I didn't take too many.

Even Venice, it's as beautiful and fairy tale like as we hear. But even that through pictures.

Some pictures:

Rukan, who runs the restaurant in Monzambano.


With a group of friends


Playing Jesus in a film


Another shoot, this was apparently an ambitious project shot in the waters


Rafeal, from Brazil, who has become close friend


With Belan, when the two of them went off to see Rome


Chilling, very apparently


So pretty


With Krzysztof Zanussi, a well known Polish director, who did a master class for them


A campfire night


One of their town square screenings


One of Dhruva's instagram pictures with caption 'most of these folks transcended into family'


Picture card perfect...he said all the houses in this town have these pretty paintings on them, like this one here


With Johanna from Poland


St Peter's square at the Vatican


They apparently spent all night on this wall


Another instagram picture of his



They acted as zombies in another film. That's Dhruva standing right, I didn't recognize him until he told me :(


With Izem, a close friend from Turkey


What a beautiful sunset to chill with


A little video clip at one of their town square screenings.  Apparently a group of them started dancing in the middle of the square after the screening, and initially the town folk were taken aback, but gradually they also joined in and it went on till late into the night



These are pictures I happened to have as he'd sent them to me earlier in some sorting process, so there's no real sequence or anything.

Dhruva, I realize we've likely touched just the surface level of the experience, but glad we had this chat. It definitely widened my perspective, of not just your trip, but also of you.

It sure is one intense experience. Glad you discovered it, got selected, did it not once but twice. Way to go Kanna !!